night rally!!!

the night rally really wasnt even that good. everyone would just keep talking even when dylan would talk. it was way annoying! the junor (i think i spelled that wrong, but im hella tired so idc) dance was hella long im happy they cut it of before it took anymore of my life away. im not trying to be mean it just wasnt a good dance and it just dragged on. all in all the night really was less than i expected. i would have hoped that the senors would have made it better because it is the last one we will come to for our school, but i guess i was wrong. well im hella tired and ima go to sleep. goodnight

i hate her!!!!!

i hate her with everything i got. she is the worse thing i have ever encountered. she is the' bitch' or even the wicked witch of the west! she takes away the one thing the one person that makes me have a reason to wake up and smile, the one person that always makes me happy, the one person i can never stop thinking about. she took away amy. and for that i hate her. i will never love nor like her ever again. she has made my life harder then a 17 year olds life should be. she acts stupid in the case of being called a bitch. youve never been called a bitch when you were all prepy and cheery cheerleader??? thats a fucking lie and that all that come out of you mouth! you say youre doing it for me but if you really were then you would see the tears that seem to never stop. its as if you like seeing people that are better then you unhappy. i sure in the hell am better to you and everyone knows it. soon you wont be sucessful compared to me or my sisters. you will just be exactly what you dont want to be... a no body and in my eyes and to me you already are a no body. its as if you were waiting for something like thisd to happen so you could say 'no seeing amy' but fuck you i see her everyday and you have no control over that so i dont see the point in saying wait until im 18. ill be 18 in 5 months so why not just let me see her? you know how much i lover her and how much you are fucking killing me when you do this. and you sday i dont care, i at least talked and told her not to do that anymore and to do everything i say, but you put me, a 17 year old, under soo much stress and depression that ive lost all want to eat at home, ive lost all happiness when i walk through that door way and thats all becuase of you! and as i said in creative writing im picking the highway and never turning back becuase i refuse to do it your way. just wait intil i move out becuase i hope its a slap in the face becuase this whole situation is like getting jumped by 10 people and no one is there to help me. you wont ever talk to my older sister becuase you know your reasoning is stupid and pointless. youre the only family member amy doesnt like and thats becuase you try to controo everyone and she wont take it. everyone knows your reasoning is stupid and they dont they you control them. so im going to join that part of the family and not let you control me, i am my own being, i am an individual, i am.... JACOB DAVIS!

i forgot to comment!!!!!!!!

i cant believe i didnt comment! i remembered at like 11:30 sunday night but i was waaaaay too lazy to get up off my butt and go comment. i need to be less lazy. i need to do something when i first remember or am told to do it. lol thats my downfall i guess you can say. it happened when i was in honors 2 with jensen. i hated blogging and i would usually blog in the morning of the dsy it was due. so i need to remember to blog so i can for sure get an A so i can prove i am uber smart to everyone lol i used uber.

ohhh hot dog

i dont know why my title is oh hot dog. lol i just felt like saying that. well today is hella hot but i have another night practice so no worries it will be nice by the end. i hope it cools down like last wensday. i loved that breeze. well today i bought my girlfriend her favorite energy drink and she doesnt know so im just going to surprize her. have you ever just felt like doing something that you know will make that person glow with a smile? i love doing it. it puts me in a better mood and then its just an all around good day. well dont tell her i got her a red bull if you read this. i want it to be a gift.